random thoughts

so my minds racing with what to blog about today. i have so many different thoughts going on in there, but i’m pretty sure they’re all somehow related. so bear with me as i try to hash this all out…

this morning i was listening to the local christian radio station in the car. let me start by saying that i rarely listen to christian radio. not for any particular reason, other than i don’t appreciate all christian music, and would rather choose what i listen to (CD’s). but anyhow… focus on the family was on. i don’t really know who the speaker was or what the topic was, but a man was saying that his wife had died and he was left with 3 young daughters. the speaker mentioned that “God is in the mess”, and then mentioned that all things are made beautiful through Christ, even if we don’t see them. it really hit me. even more so this afternoon when having lunch with a friend, she told me of a mutual friend that found out she has cancer. and in the past few months we have been hit by a number of illness and deaths all around us. but that radio program was such a good reminder that God is in the mess. he’s in it thick with us, never leaving our side.

so another thought i had was of slight conviction when reading kate’s blog, she mentioned that her postings seemed trivial and not as deep as the other blogs out there covering “more important issues”. but then she went on to say that trivial as it may be, its still what is happening in her life. i’m right there with her. although my postings may not tend to be deep (rather shallow, in fact!), they are my life. and most of the time, its a mess! and God is in the midst of my mess!

this somehow relates to the title of my blog, imperfect. if you look closely at any quilt or pillow i’ve ever made, you’ll see a rushed job, lots of imperfection. i tend to try to make things perfect when i’m hosting a party or entertaining, but in reality, i fall so short. what you don’t see are the things shoved in the closets and under the bed, the crazy, hectic rush before the guests come, and my anxiety when they are here. and sometimes i feel guilty about enjoying the details i put into a shower or party, and trying to make things “so pretty” instead of worrying more about my guests comfort. but i also know that God made all things beautiful, and He made these things for us to enjoy so we would in turn recognize that He is the giver of all these good things. but there needs to be a balance somewhere, so again i rest in God being in my mess, my life. where i fall short, he fulfills.

so, totally random thoughts for today! probably about as deep as i’ll get for awhile! ;)



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    “Imperfect” looks perfect to me. And even more so as I read pieces from your blog.

    All your creative ideas encourage me to get moving on my own.

    I see how crazy you are about the girls, Sean, and your family.

    I love seeing how you have a beautiful community of godly friends around you. I love that you all take advantage of that by being intentional about being together.

    I especially loved reading today, seeing your tenderness towards God and His place in your life.

    This blogging thing works for me, it makes you not seem so far away.

    btw- I think perfection comes in having the humility to know that we are “imperfect.”

    I love you!

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    Shannon says:

    Wow! That was deep! But I loved it – wish I would have heard the message but I think you summed it up perfectly, I mean imperfectly, I mean nicely!!! Hee hee. It is so true – sometimes it is hard to see God through the mess and the tears but he is always there for us! Amen!

    Luv ya

    Hi Aunt Lindsey – give Gracie and Lily a hug from me!!! (that was from Mandy)

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    What sweet thoughts. I love remembering how much God loves beauty.
    And I totally know what you mean about finding joy in the details. The little things are often the best part. Like finding the perfect ribbon to tie around the water pitcher. =)

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    Kristen Borland says:

    amen, sister. :)

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