very minor progress today, but progress nonetheless. i finished the bumper and most of the bedskirt. as soon as i put on the bumper i realized how bad of an idea vertical stripes were on a bumper. when they’re next to the bars of the crib you can really see how lousy of a job i did with keeping everything straight – the lines of the fabric go up at an angle! oh well, that’s just another example of why my blog is titled “imperfect”! the bedskirt went really fast. i just cut a piece of muslin (inexpensive fabric) to fit over the springs part of the crib. then i sewed dyed burlap (i think i got it for $2-3 a yard) to that on all four sides. i haven’t hemmed the bottom yet because i actually don’t plan to. i’m just going to cut it off where it hits the floor, then everytime i lower the baby’s crib mattress i can just re-cut the hem so it sits at floor level. ingenious, i know! ok, actually its pure laziness, but it worked in my favor this time!
the green striped fabric is my favorite of all the fabrics i got, and i used all of it on the bumper, so i’m hoping to sneak in a quick trip to the cotton ball in morrow bay tomorrow while the girls are napping/ resting. of course it had to be the most expensive of all the fabrics i chose, but i only will need a little for the blanket. i’m still unsure of what to do for the stinkin’ blanket!!! i have a couple ideas, but am so afraid to commit to one! very bazaar.
speaking of bazaar, i was holding a brand new baby this past week and totally loved it. however, i didn’t feel the excitement of, “oh, i’m going to have one of these soon!” that i totally expected that i would. i think i’m still a bit freaked out about having another baby, on some level. and i’m still not anticipating and thinking about the baby as much as i am thinking about the change that will come with him. i really want him to be welcomed into the world and not just brought into it. its really important to me, but i still can’t wrap my mind around the fact that he is coming. so weird. i still trip out whenever i walk by a mirror and see my huge belly. although being pregnant has rarely slipped my mind, especially at this stage when it affects everything i do, i don’t think about the baby all that much, mostly just the pregnancy. am i making sense? i’m somehow disconnecting the baby from the pregnancy. not healthy, i’m sure. here’s the excuses i fall back on: i’m so preoccupied with my girls, that my mind isn’t focussed on another baby yet, and sean’s so busy with work that i don’t how we’ll do this with the hours he has. blah, blah, blah….i know, there are a lot bigger problems in the world, and i’m complaining about what are really the blessings in my life! maybe in my next post i’ll have a changed attitude/heart….
a little progress:
June 24, 2007