this is me on the morning of my birthday. gracie was so cute – she got a ton of her toys and wrapped them all up for me in gift bags and boxes. she had so much fun spoiling me with all her gifts. lily’s got some sweet bed head!
later that night, sean and the girls came home with a surprise for me (a cake). gracie did a really good job keeping it a secret until just before the “unveiling”. she ran into the room and said, “mommy, don’t look at your cake – its a surprise!” ! so cute!
so back to the “why didn’t anyone tell me” thing: i’m FAT! you can all say what you like and be polite and all, but its true! i see myself momentarily everyday in the mirror, but don’t generally have time to take it all in. but when i just looked at this picture of me on my birthday, well, i’m huge! i knew my body was large, but i actually had convinced myself (wrongly) that my face still looked mostly normal. aaaahhhhh! no more comments from anyone saying that i’m “all belly” because that’s all bull! and i still have 2 more months to go, and you know how the weight packs on so easily from here on out. at my last weigh in, i mean dr.’s appointment, i had already gained over 40 pounds! that is not “all belly”! that’s buns, thighs, arms, face, “cankles”…… all over!
my doctor said i can keep going the way i am because she knows that i can pretty much lose the weight after, but she doesn’t suggest it. she said i really need to eat more protein and cut back on carbs and sugars. looks like i need to join lisa on the south beach diet!
so here’s what i need from you: suggestions. i need to know what are good breakfasts, lunches, dinners, and snacks that fit my doc’s criteria. here’s my typical eating for a day, so you’ll see where i struggle (mostly sugars and carbs):
bfast – cinnamon swirl toast, and huge glass of milk
lunch – chicken fingers, fries, and strawberry shake (shared with the girls, of course)
snack – granola bar?
dinner – chicken, pasta, veggie
dessert – bowl of ice cream
so i’m not looking for sympathy. by my daily diet example you can see just how i’ve done this to myself. is this what gluttony looks like? anyone have some suggestions? i do really want to do this, because i’ve gone from feeling great to feeling huge. i’m getting pretty uncomfortable lugging around this extra weight, and most positions sitting or laying down or squatting are nearly painful. and the waddle doesn’t help the ego much.
oh, and i’m supposed to be exercising too…. right