as i said before, we got to the hospital in the morning. my water was broken for me and had no progress. a pic above is of our moms during this time going thru baby name books trying to help us choose a middle name. so at about 1, dr. yin started me on pitossin. this got my contractions going. i had my epidural at about 3. this guy was fast: my contractions were coming 3 minutes apart and he got it done in 2 1/2 minutes so i didn’t have to hold still during a contraction. he was very nice, and i again totally recommend epidurals!
by about 7:30-8 i was dialated to a 10. i pushed for an hour, making hardly any progress. my doc came in to check me. turns out he was sunnyside up. she said that all the pushing i had done so far had made both the baby and i very swollen, making it even harder for him to come out. she said she would allow me to push for another hour and if it didn’t work i’d have to get a c-section. that was motivating for me. although i’ve never been fully opposed to a c-section, i’d of course rather go natural. but after pushing for an hour, i felt like it would’ve been a waste to not keep trying. the first hour of pushing had been so fruitless because my epidural had worked too well for silas being sunnyside up. i couldn’t feel anything, especially not where to push. so my epidural was set at 12, i guess thats pretty average. we kept lowering it more and more until the epidural was at 4. i was feeling everything. not all the pain but all the pressure. when that still wasn’t entirely working, a nurse or my doctor (can’t remember who) suggested a new method for pushing: tug-of-war. they gave me one end of a sheet with a knot and gave the other end to sean. my mom was on one side of me and my sister-in-law shannon was on the other. they held my legs for me as i tried to tug the sheet from sean (my arms are really sore from this today). eventually it worked. after 2 to 2 1/2 hours of pushing, silas’ head was out. thankfully i mostly push with my eyes closed, for fear of my eyes popping out (ha!), and i didn’t see what happened next. i’m told that silas had the cord wrapped twice around his neck and he was blue. the doctor quickly cut his cord and i was able to finish pushing him out. i was clueless to this, thankfully. he was fine/is fine. God is good! he has no health issues at all.
from all of this my recovery is going to be much slower. i have sooooo much swelling and some stitches and a very sore back, which i guess are all things typical of a sunnyside up birth. until i got home today, i hadn’t walked at all. other than going potty, which i needed assistance most of the time. i’m so bummed about this, not only because its pretty painful (yay vicodin!) but also because it stops me from being with my kids like i want to be. i can’t even really hold lily on my lap, and they have to be so careful around me, where they touch me and push against me. this is going to be really difficult! thankfully, sean is home for now, my parents are here for a few more days, and silas has been awesome. pray for energy and patience for me, please. thats all for now, enjoy the pics, and more to come (we’ve already got a few hundred!).