ok, maybe it’s more of a confession.
i am not who you think i am.
i may come off confident and secure in myself here on the bloggy blog,
but that’s not me in real life.
i despise being in large groups,
especially where i don’t know anyone.
when i’m in a large crowd with my husband i am basically like velcro on his side.
having kids has been really helpful for me because they are always a good distraction.
when i am selling at a boutique or craft show, i always beg my sidekick to come along so i don’t have to be alone with strangers and sell my own products.
and i’m terrible with small talk.
here on the blog, i can promote myself up and down, but when it comes to selling myself “for reals”, i panick.
my heart starts racing and i pull away.
why am i telling you this?
because i need your support.
i just did something really big.
or really stupid.
or it could be great.
see that new little button on my side bar over there ——>?
yep, i’m going.
i’m going to blissdom!!!
not only did i just fork out over $300 for the conference tickets,
but i also just booked my flights.
i’m not nervous about flying by myself.
it actually sounds like a really nice break.
but its once i get there.
and i’ll have to meet people.
and share a room with people i don’t know.
oh, by the way… i need a roomie (or 3) to help cut my costs.
are any of you going?
wanna bunk up with a really nervous girl?
and you see me,
and i’m cowering in a corner all by myself,
please be nice and say hi .
i’m going to do my very best to come out of my shell, if only for a few days
and really get out to meet all the amazing women that will be there.
i am excited.
but also really, really scared.
i need courage and confidence.
prayers accepted here.