the itch that can’t be scratched

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you guys, i think i’m going through a style mid-life crisis.  i need help.  maybe professional.

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ok, so maybe that sounds a bit dramatic, but there is a touch of seriousness.  after closing my shop several months ago, i have been struggling to “find myself” in my newfound creative freedom.  i walked away from my sewing machine, only to go back to stitch a tear or patch a hole.  thats pretty much it.  and i have built up some odd immunity to crafts and all things crafty.  i still love handmade, but not in the same way i used to.  i am yearning for a different kind of handmade, almost where you can’t tell that its handmade, but just cleverly designed.  leaning a bit more toward modern.  but then i feel like i’m denying my vintage/thrifted roots!  oh, how i still love all things old and chipped and slightly damaged.

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in my home, i have been stripping myself of my usual patterns of adding every little tchotchke that would fit on the shelf (and look adorable) to a more simple look, even taking away some things that are adorable, just to set out less.  less is hard, you guys!  while i love color, i am feeling myself pull away from color in a big way.  i’m yearning for quiet in my decorating life.  i want less color, more layers & texture.

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i am not willing just yet to sell off every non-necessary tchotchke or bright colored accessory (although i’ve seriously thought about it), but i’m also not ready to dish out hundreds of dollars for items that i think will satisfy my i’m-not-quite-sure-what-to-name-it hole i’m trying to fill.  so instead i’m doing what i do best:  shopping my house to create just the right feeling in each of our spaces.  the only thing is, i’m redo-ing everything i can get my hands on… and i’m not happy!

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i have rearranged silas & lily’s shared room and totally hate it.  while i was trying for something different, i got it.  but what i also got are 2 beds that are difficult to be made (against a wall) and corner’s of beds that we all catch our ankles on – ouch!%*@!  i bought a $100 rug on a whim (aka bad idea) and it landed in here after trying 2 other rooms where it apparently wasn’t welcome (aka it looked way too busy, like i was trying too hard).

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i haven’t touched gracie’s room but i want to.  what i really want to do is put the girls back in this room together, but sean said moving the kids to different rooms just to serve my need for change wasn’t a good enough reason.  i guess i can’t be too irritated by his practical rationality.  so i’m working on some better reasons.  no really, i am.  i’ve got 2 pretty good ones worked up and  will solidify the “need” with a 3rd reason as soon as i think it up ;)

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i am also still loving the fresh changes i made to the kitchen.  i want my whole house to feel like the kitchen, but with knit throws and textured pillows ;)

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our living room is probably the trickiest, and most annoying to me.  it is the biggest space with the least amount of options for functionality.  design is one thing, but functionality has to come first.  perfect example:  silas and lily’s room.  i think i can get the design back to something i like, but its not functioning well for our family.  but the living room’s functionality issues aren’t really ones i can change – our couches are big, our entry way is small/nonexistent, the entry to the school room is straight through the living room, and i have very little wall space.  after 8 years i feel like i have tried every option for rearranging the furniture in there (without buying new furniture) and am at a loss.

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(not my home.  i wish.  no really, i want this house.)

so the only solution is to sell the house and build a new one!  if only it were that simple.  in all reality, sean and i have been talking about bigger dreams and taking on a building project again.  we both love our home and our neighborhood (its really hard to beat), but we are also both feeling a strong push for change.  while i’m trying to work out my need for change within my home, the pull for looking elsewhere is getting stronger.  we aren’t at a point where we are seriously pursuing anything, and definitely not at the point of selling our home, but its fun to dream.  even the kids have been catching on to our talk of our “dream house” and have enjoyed putting in their 2 cents.  while we are assuring them that this is only dreaming for fun, there’s a big part of us that is hoping it can be true.

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but for now, i will continue to work out my issues on my home and try to hone in on what i really want via pinterest.  i hear its cheaper than a counselor.

(p.s. if you want to see the direction i’m heading, you can follow me here.)

hi! i’m lindsey!

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maybe you’re new here, or maybe you’ve been hanging around for awhile (i’ve been blogging for over 7 years now!), but either way, i think its time for a proper introduction!

hi!  i’m lindsey!  i’m 36 but forget a lot and wish i were 28 (the perfect age).  i have a fierce sweet tooth that i battle with daily.  i am an introvert and a homebody – i consider it a win if i don’t have to leave the house in a day.  that said, i also love to travel!  i am also the owner of the pleated poppy, which began as a lifestyle blog, grew also into a successful handmade business for several years, and after “retiring” from the business i’m back to focusing on my family & blog.  i love to write about house projects, design ideas, and outfit inspiration.  i started “what i wore wednesdays“, a weekly outfit post & link party, several years ago with the goal of encouraging other women to set aside a few extra minutes for themselves, to try new styles with affordable fashion.

i’ve been married to sean for 14 years – we met when i was fresh out of high school!  our marriage isn’t perfect, but its more amazing than i ever expected.  he’s a hands-on dad and always supportive of my hair brained ideas.  he’s an entrepreneur in every sense of the word, and has been my business coach over the years.  we share big dreams of our lives together and tackle the messiness of parenting as a team.  he works out of the house when he’s not traveling, so i have the privilege of calling him in for reinforcement when the days get tough ;)  we both come from big families and love getting to spend time with our out-of-town siblings and parents – one of those big dreams we hope to see in our own kids someday.

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i’m also mama to 3 kids that are in the sweet spot of ages right now (gracie is 11, lily is 9, and silas is 7).  we do a unique version of schooling, a mix of homeschooling (3 days a week) and at-schooling (2 days a week) following the classical model of education.  in our home we are noisy and imperfect, but jesus always comes first.  family meal times are a top priority, bucking society’s push to over schedule our kids.  we also are big on chores, aiming for our kids to grow to be hard workers and do all for the glory of god.

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i went to college without a clue of my life’s direction, after 4 years of honors & AP classes in high school.  instead of trying out different electives like art or photography in high school, i took another language class or european history.  it wasn’t until i was nearly through my general ed college classes did i realize i loved art and design!  i was finally able to take classes that spoke to me and inspired me, but i wasn’t about to start my college career over with a new major.  i was already dating sean and knew we wanted to wait to get married until i was done with school, so i put myself on the fast track to finishing college (summer and winter session classes every year) in just 3 1/2 years.  during my last year of school, i started interning as a decorative painter/faux finisher.  to be creative as a career finally became an option for me, so when i graduated with my liberal studies degree, i decided not to pursue a teaching career like i had settled on.

i eventually started my own painting business (sean’s entrepreneurial spirit was already rubbing off on me!), and after tiring from the physical labor from painting, i fell in love with all things vintage.  inspired by filling up our newlywed home with garage sale finds, i realized there were more deals to find than what i needed for myself.  i found a local antique mall with space to rent and began thrifting, going to flea markets & estate sales weekly to fill up my booth.  anything that needed some love or repairs i would fix up, using my newly honed painting skills.

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i eventually closed that business once i was pregnant with my first and we moved from the beach community of san clemente, california to 4 hours up the coast to san luis obispo, where we’ve lived for the last 11 years.  during that time, sean and i have also renovated & remodeled a duplex and 2 homes – we work well together: i tell him my vision, and he makes it a reality ;)

since closing my handmade business, i have had several design & business opportunities come my way.  this has been a season of “no” for me as i try to find new footing in this stage.  one of my big “yeses” was to become a design & business consultant for our school’s non-profit thrift store, called fred & betty’s.  it has been a great fit for me, combining my love for thrifting, design, and business.  it takes more of my time than i intend, but i also get great joy out of the work i do there.

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 in my internet life, you can follow along with me here on my blog, sporadically on Facebook, and pretty consistently on instagram.  you can also find me daydreaming on pinterest.  its good to meet you and i’m so glad you’re here!